The Sinking Feeling

Falling. Wind rushes by in gusts that threaten to rip me to pieces. Falling. Utter darkness that consumes my whole self. Falling. It's as if the dark is consuming my mind, darkening my thoughts and my feelings. Falling. A sensation that things are ending soon. Falling. The feelings are stronger. Falling. I release and prepare for it to end. Falling. The anticipation of the end is ripping my sanity from my mind. Falling. I can't imagine it going further. Falling. Stopping with a thud and a groan it ends....

I wake up panting and sweating. Barely able to move, ears full of pressure and the sound of my fast beating heart. I calm down finally. My panting subsides and I fall back into my relaxation, and it begins again...

Stuck Behind Closed Eyes

What happens? What happened? What is happening? What will happen? How will it happen? Why is it, will it or did it happen?
Questions without answers. Inquiries without results.Life is full of them. From the past, present and no doubt the future. Where? When? How? Who knows what answers would be found out if we even opened our minds to all the possibilities for seconds, no milliseconds even!  We could end our world or make it greater. Find hope or destroy it. Change the world or condemn it. Yet have we done it? we are so cooped up in our little insignificant lives and petty problems and habits that blind up from the world surrounding us. Shut out our minds from things that could change  out thoughts or even our belief of reality. Thoughts that could obliterate the injustices, the pain and the wants of the world. And still we close our minds to these things. Still we hold ourselves back instead of all pushing forward together we live separate and alone, with our eyes closed...